following my own code II

so here's another one. another day and night. the more i think about the 'resolutions' that i need to make, the more i can see how wrong it is to even think too hard about the possibilities of being w/ someone who is still in a relationship. this is obvious.
well, it's easy for the objective observer.
girlfriends abound have the same thing to say: he sounds fucked up. he sounds like he's playing w/ you. something is wrong w/ that guy.
of course, that is the natural thing to think of an attached man who is flirting w/ another woman. i would say the same thing to any other friend who would present such an instance to me. fuckers they are. those fuckers. why can't men be faithful to their women??

i have to wonder though: is it possible to develop a friendship w/ someone you are attracted to? after you've crossed a line? after you've already kissed and discovered that his lips are compatible w/ yours?
it's hard for me to completely cut off a relationship w/ someone w/ whom i am fascinated by. it is ill-advised, i know. but i've decided that i have to test the waters. chemistry is difficult to find w/ friends and lovers alike. and i'm too intrigued by the situation. if the flirtation continues, then i must take the higher road and run away.
i MUST. i WILL. it would be disrespectful of me to continue to allow a tempting situation where we have to keep on resisting something that's stupid and wrong.
phew. it helps to put it out there.